Anonymous asked:How do you feel about Feferi now that things are over between you?
i swear to god the word divorce comes in and people’s ears slam shut like a metal door.
you can not look at this like a human relationship, because we are not humans and we don’t have emotions EXACTLY like yours. just similar.
Feferi told me that she was unhappy with what our life together was like. we examined it, piece by piece, and we determined that this human thing called marriage, that we didn’t know ANYTHING about before her father insisted we have one, was something she stressed over.
she was born and bred for polygamy and polyamory, as part of being tyrian blooded. as much as humans can’t understand it when other humans are thus, Feferi was driving herself crazy trying to wrap her brain around it, especially since we’ve had one big miscommunication between us already.
I had sworn, made a vow really, long before marrying her, that if ever i was in the position to do so, I would put her happiness first. i watched her distance from Eridan, grow close to Sollux. I heard all about both relationships, over time, through the grapevine. I was present for her death.
when she died, a piece of me died. can i make this anymore clear? i literally felt myself, a portion of myself, weaken, shrivel, and die.
and when i saw her, under that impala, pulling my bloody pathetic mess of a self out, i would’ve had a heart attack if i had had the blood for it. i renewed my vow, then, when i heard how she was even able to be there.
………….and if you can’t be fucked to read this carefully written answer with equal care, then let me say it like how i would say it to my fucking dogs, so you can still get the message.
i will always. always love her. her happiness is of utmost importance to me because over the course of her life, she was always making others happy. always doing for others. even if it isn’t with me, i will always strive to make her happy.
this knight devotes his life, limb, heart, and soul to his queen, forever and for always.